Faced My Fears

For some reason, I feel like singing. I feel like dancing, smiling, laughing. I feel good. I also feel really derealized. Ugh! Yeah, not that again. But hey. There are so many amazing things in my life and I’m so overwhelmed with gratitude every second of my life, always noting that these experiences I experience can be very amazing…

I have been feeling really really anxious as junk all day everyday and it’s just so crazy. I don’t know how I’m supposed to cope, I don’t know if I should throw a party or sleep for a few days or cry or throw candy away at the library. I’m really clueless as what I’m supposed to do!! So I did what any sensible person would do, I took my anti-anxiety meds then took a deep breath. I was going to get a facial today, and even though I was kinda groggy walking into that office, it’s just amazing to sit there for 2 hours and be pampered in such an elegant and effective and important way and I will never stop being thankful. Screw everyone who says I’m ungrateful. You have no place to say that. You don’t know shit.

This facial though. Having my face massaged and laying under a steamer for so long, I kept telling myself that I just had to let my anxiety go, and that actually worked. That actually happened. My prayers were answered and I was able to relax to some degree and enjoy how blessed I am. And that’s quality life-ing if you ask me!

Now I’m happy, I’m a little out of it, but I’m here with my love and my face feels great, and I know shit will go down tonight because yin and yang never rest and I have to suffer for my success; wow that sounds so morbid but I ultimately am just talking about balance. But I love balance… It can make me feel so zen. I love it.

I love you Ally. I love my vanity. I love my humility.

Part two: CONCERTS

No but seriously, I’m back in concert swing. I’m so excited! I’m going to a concert every week this month! Ally and I just saw the 1975 and that’s where this hilarious picture came from, I was using my phone as a mirror and then Ally took pictures. I thought it was pretty funny.

Love ya dolls

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