I guess it’s stupid that I’ve always wanted to be like… a Kylie Jenner version of Alan Turing. Isn’t that the stupidest thing you’ve ever heard? However, here I am, passionate for my fashion yet still being able to understand things that nobody else can grasp, making me annoyed by them….That’s stupid too. All of that. I’m not a genius if I can’t treat people with the respect they deserve. I’m incredibly dumb because I can’t even feed myself, too much anxiety occupying my every nerve.
DUMB DUMB DUMB I GOTTA JUST BE ABBZIEZ
So the lesson is, I’m not dumb, I’m not smart, I’m not Alan Turing, I’m not Kylie Jenner, but even better… I’m Abby. I have my own great qualities, I know a lot about things I’m passionate about, and I love to learn more about new people. If you wanna know my thoughts, listen to Glass Animals. If you wanna know my feelings, listen to Linkin Park. If you wanna know my heart, listen to Lights. If you wanna know my fears, listen to Seether. If you wanna know about the part of me that lives on to be wild, listen to Lana Del Rey. If you wanna know my vibe, listen to Christina Aguilera. If you wanna know my aura, listen to Britney Spears. And lastly, if you wanna know who I really am as a person, listen to my words and the way I speak them. So you’re doing pretty well if you’re reading this blog post, because these words ^ are known to be my truth.
But also, I love these words. Some examples of…
My thoughts – “Pineapples are in my head, got nobody ’cause I’m brain dead. Somebody said that I’m fucking scum…Don’t know where I belong. Maybe you’re fucking dumb, maybe I’m just a bum, maybe you’re fucking scum.” – Glass Animals
My feelings – “I am not a pattern to be followed, the pill that I’m on is a tough one to swallow. I’m not a criminal, not a role model, not a born leader I’m a tough act to follow.” – Linkin Park
My heart – “You know I’ll be the stillness when you’re shaking. And when you fall overboard, I’ll follow you down.” – Lights
My fears – “Say “Can you help me?” right before the fall… Take what you can and leave me to the wolves.” – Seether
My will to be wild – “We’re children of the bad revolution, and partying’s our only solution. And I’m not feeling any confusion about who we are, and what we’re gonna be, we’re gonna get free.” – Lana Del Rey
My vibe – “Sorry if I ain’t perfect, sorry I don’t give a [fuck]. Sorry I ain’t a diva, sorry just know what I want. Sorry I’m not a virgin, sorry I’m not a slut. I won’t let you break me, say what you want.” – Christina Aguilera (;
My aura – “I tell ’em what I like, what I want, and what I don’t. But every time I do, I stand corrected. Things that I’ve been told, I can’t believe, what I hear about the world I realize I’m overprotected. There must be another way…’cause I believe in taking chances. But who am I to say what a girl is to do? God, I need some answers.” – Britney Spears
And some words from me… People I think I’m conceited, or annoying, or whatever, but what they don’t know is, I’m having the time of my life here in my little corner. But no matter what I think or feel or see, please, everyone, know that I respect you in the fullest way. I’m so serious dude.
“And I can see, obviously, baby you don’t know what it’s like to be me.”