if

jumbled thoughts that make no sense and yet i still have the sense to ramble with them

i don’t know why

i hate this life

it’s too complicated and i don’t understand

but what does it matter

when in doubt you just yell at the top of your lungs, in a pitch that only you can hear

dive into the future and stop being dragged down by everything around you

i wanted a life i really wanted a life but

i don’t need to

i’m too uneasy

please let me let go

please calm me down

please be the stillness when i’m shaking

im counting on you